Someday

I believe in the rest of the story
I believe there's still ink in the pen
I have wasted my very last day
Trying to change what happened way back when

I believe it's the human condition
We all need to have answers to why
More than ever, I'm ready to say that I
Will still sleep peacefully
With answers out of reach from me until�

Someday all that's crazy
All that's unexplained
Will fall into place
And someday all that's hazy
Through a clouded glass
Will be clear at last
And sometimes we're just waiting
For someday

We are born with a lingering hunger
We are born to be unsatisfied
We are strangers who can't help but wander
And dream about the other side of�

Every puzzle's missing piece
Every unsolved mystery
More than half of every whole
Rests in the Hands that hold you for someday�.

Mexico Etc....

Here is an excerpt from a recent email that'll explain my travels a little better... and maybe you can understand the pics more too......

I'm working 4 days a wk, Mon. thru thurs. I'm still totally loving
my work at the greenhouse... Its so fulfilling.... Ok you wonder,
planting flowers, fulfilling? But its so much more then that! Its the
people, the hard work, the diversity of the work, the playing in the
dirt, the watching things grow, and so much more. The money is nice,
but thats really not why i work there. Its a love for my job. I feel
so fortunate that i can say that. I've been able to form so many
positive and also fun relationships there, and that is a huge
blessing.
Otherwise, i'm busy with loads of other things... Trying to get
sewing done... now anyone who knows me well, knows that thats a huge
feat for me! Because i dislike sewing....
yea, still milking cows 4 mornings a wk and every eve. And yes, i do
enjoy it, the only time i really don't is when i have some activity
that i have to miss or be late for:(
I'm studying( or should say i had been, i haven't gotten to it since
i'm home from my trip to Mexico) to take my GED test. I'm hoping to
get that done soon.
I'm planning a trip to Maine in the end of the month, i'm planning to
meet a new niece or nephew up there!:-) PTL!!
I'm also having fun with friends and neighbors and good stimulating
phone calls and....... catching up with my family- that is also quite
a feat to be honest. It seems half the time I don't know where my
brother Ivan even is.... bout the only time i can snag him is in the
barn! Ok, the real shocker is that my extremely independent sister
Sarah started dating while i was gone in Mexico!! I really missed out
on something with that... especially since i've never really met the
guy! His name is Andrew Zehr, and he's from Ontario, Canada. He's from
the same church that my sis Emma and her husband go to up there. So
yeah, my approval is pending until i can meet the guy and form my own
opinion. Don't get me wrong, i'm totally happy for her, its just a
whole new real mind blowing concept to get used to! I know, i'm going
to have to get over any selfish attachment and feeling that she's
always gonna be here. She certainly deserves a knight in shining armor
if anyone does. So far he's only "the guy". but i've a feeling that my
opinion will change to the more romantic description, anyway if my sis
has anything to say about it.

Now, to get on with things and tell you bout my trip to Mexico. I
definately enjoyed it. in spite of the fact that it rained almost the
whole week which cut the amount of work that we could get done in like
half. But it still was a blast, and i was still very blessed, and yea
over all twas totally a positive learning experience. Truly, my brain
programmed so much... its still working on filing it! As an assistant
on the committee, i had to help my lovely friend Katrina:) take care
of monetary issues, lead out on the jobs, and try to stay out of
trouble. That was mostly accomplished i do believe, but you might want
to check that out with the other folks. I felt really weird being i
was one of the younger ones.... but everyone was very gracious to
me!:) I won't get into all the specifics of everything.... just a
glimpse... A highlight was being with the children at the orphanage,
playing twister with the girls!... blowing up balloons... I got
to know a 16 yr old girl there and we could converse pretty well so
that was a huge blessing. there's so much need there, but i'm happy
to report that the orphanage was definately improved from when i was
there 2 yrs ago. Another highlight was the real Mexican food! also,
hanging out in the cabin getting to know my new "family" and playing
rook in the dining hall( yeah i must admit... the addictive fingers of
that game have taken my attention) I also worked at the old peoples
home one day.... helped with food, and another girl and i gave
baths. That place may be the way it is, but it has a drawing affect on
me to go back and see how everyone is faring.
Then on the last day... piling everything in the vans to cross over
the border to go home; luggage on top of, beneath, beside, and almost
within, all the passengers.... what a sight! Then flying home with
my "new family" was so great, ... spending so much money on airport
food(its robbery, really!) but i let loose of my purse strings and
spent all my cash... giving the last 5 bucks to my faithful driver.;)
You know, a key thing on this trip was total refreshing laughter.
It releases the stress within.... I know that God blessed me with
that! So props to the many who brought the laughter about!
So thanks to my new friends from the OFJ trip. For putting up with me
and blessing me in myriad ways! And thanks to the many others who
supported me with prayer during it! I remain ever undeserving of your
loyalty, and am humbled by your love. Thanks!

Well thats gonna have to do it for now. You can breathe a sigh of
relief right along with me if you like(If you made it this far). Its
not that i don't enjoy sharing, but i am tired, and tomorrow is
Thursday. Do i have time for a proofread???? :O( If there's
anything inopropriate, feel free to tell me!

Blessings! Simply put~Es

Mexico...........

Ok, I'll let the pictures tell the story as much as is possible.... I had a fantastic time.... lets put it that way! thanks for thinking/praying for me while i was gone! G'night~Es

for the life of me...

yea.... some things are just unfigureoutable. ????? If you don't get that, well its ok, cuz i'm sure i don't!:)Thinking, planning, doing, sleeping, eating, talking, working. (life) That is hard to figure out. PRAY, now that is simple. Its a direct connection to God. Simple, yes, but at the same time, its such a unique, intricate relationship. And its between GOD and ME!! And if i share all my unfigureoutable things with Him, they become definable, or they seem so sensless that i wonder why i even worried about it in the first place so i step over my confusion and move on. Wow. Praise GOD!

I'm not going to get into many details of my recent life, cuz that would take way to long, and my time is limited as usual.... so yea just get on with it Es!! This past wk tho my friend Terri n i went to the huge carousel mall in Syracuse with some of my other friends...then on Sat i went skiing.... A first time for both of those things! skiing was great....(thank you Jo!!:) i'd love to go again because now i'd feel more confident...but its hard for me to spend the money!:(
Then on Fri this wk Ivan is taking me to Lanc. Pa, then we are going to hang out with cousins and friends that night and play vbal at a cool gym!! Then on Sat i fly out to San Diego,CA and continue on to Tijuana, Mexico for the Orphans For Jesus missions trip. I'll be gone about 10 days. Please pray for me as I'm an assistant on the committee this yr... i feel like i'm not sure what i'm getting myself into.... but we'll have to see how it goes... I am looking forward to it tho!

Well, gotta run, work is calling... wait i think its the cows that are mooing...oops actually its probably Ivan growling at me!;-D So long and so forth.... as always~the girl who is Taking God's hand and stepping over the unfigureoutables (at least for today, tomorrow shall have its own story)

The cutest li'l family!!!!

I've been up to so much lately.... i won't even try to explain! Family, friends, cousins and more cousins, travel,hunting(not me tho;), work and more would put it in a nutshell. My amish cousin's wedding was a highlight! I've come to realize how invaluable family and relatives are to me.....they are such a Blessing... and they are the people that understand you, and who you can be yourself around at all times...You can...let your hair hang down, let everything out, laugh uncontrollably, cry, share or not share and know they understand, and not easily offend. Props to the bestest cousins...and the bestest family.... Wow. I'm honored to be a part of it all.

My sis Emma, Teresa, and Brian